The negative truth about -ships~

 Holla~ for today's entry.. I'll ramble on something negative. This is the truth! No, this is just my negative opinion. Though I am usually an optimistic person.. well everyone has that pessimistic part in them somewhere. And the more optimistic you are, there is always that one pessimistic trait that makes you go "WTF man! You sick b*strd" to yourself and down right want to hang yourself for even thinking that way.

 Now, on to the topic. I'll talk ramble about the expected friendship, and relationships... look at all them -shits BE SERIOUS ADDAM!

  Friendship is all about sharing good/bad memories, hardships, and helping one another. Wao!~ very noble that I might shed crocodile tears. People go about that true friendship is all about honesty and not expecting anything in return, and tolerance and accepting. Truth be said, I don't believe that people can be honest and expect nothing in return.. unless you are a Saint (Bless you, mother Theresa!). Honesty..is a very heavy word to put onto someone. When a friend treats his/her friend with care and compassion, don't tell me that that friend would not expect to be treated the same in return?.. OF COURSE HE/SHE DOES! if you answer otherwise.. well, you are a Saint (If you are, please stop reading as it may cause some ego and morale damage..Super effective!). 

  You disagree? well, let's put it this way.. You have a friend and you treat that friend with care, compassion and all the colors of the rainbow in hoping that the friend will treat you the same in return. Everyone has different capabilities, personalities, and views.. thus have different ways of showing their affection back. But then the friend does not feel the same way back at you.. how would you feel? Sad? Distraught? Well, now u are expecting something back... So where is your "I'm honest and didn't expect anything in return?" 

  If you are going to put "Well, it's ethical to return the favor"..kudos to you, you have just contradicted yourself. The fact is, whether the friend returns the same affection is up to that friend... we feel that it is an obligation to return the affection because we desire the same thing. We often force our ideals and action onto the friend without considering that friend's capability to return back the favor. Don't go and say "It is normal to return the favor".. because it is not. Now, who is expecting from who now?

   Relationships..no, not just couples or marriage..it's connection with people. Everyone expects that relationships, especially close ones were meant to last forever (mind that I said expect). Even when we know it will end someday..could be tomorrow or next 10 years. But when the end is approaching, we get so caught up in the anxiety or fear that the emotions overwhelm us to the point that we unexpectedly end the relationship early or end it on the spot. Because we mistakenly force our worries on the other party to the point that it chokes them and made them feel uneasy. 

   Human relationships are a fragile thing... today's friends is tomorrow enemies or vice versa. We can argue all about that the other party should understand us or we should have mutual understanding.          But the fact remains that humans can never come about understanding each other. We can only reach a certain degree of understanding then that will our maximum degree of understanding and from there on is just tolerance and rejection. Relationships like everything in this world, is meant to end, question is how are we going to end it? On our selfish desires to keep up the relationship? or just enjoy every present moment with each other? You may answer the 2nd one, but are you sure? are you least worried?

    All of these I have said, are just my negative opinions... but I do have positive ones regarding these above. Yes, friendship often forces the other friend to return the same affection... but it teaches the other friend compassion, care, and to be a better person. Just don't go burdening and forcing too much on the poor fella. Relationships are meant to end.. that is the fact! SO LETS GO BATSHIT CRAZY! 

   Sabar Addam, dah nak hbs da nih...ehem.. 

  So we should enjoy every second of each other's company and not force or burden ourselves until we ignore our personal responsibilities or worse strangle the other party with our fear and worries. It is like enjoying a nice hot cup of awesome coffee, we take sips and enjoy every moment of it..not gulping down or putting a straw and sucking it up a tight tube, then the coffee will taste awful. I am a laid back person, and I like to enjoy every second of my time with people as long as I am capable. (Though I often find my laptop more interesting.. that I apologize) gotta plan on being a NEET with income in 5 years time. 

Let's keep it simple

Love is about appreciation

Programmers ain't miracle workers

I'm gonna post something after so long.. yeah~ due to endless mindfcked on Android development  *ehem*.. excuse my French.. it is 2am+ and I'm dead tired but can't sleep.. That is what Nescafe does to you after an intense 3 hours of coding~ The brain is still wide awake screaming choochoo mutha~~ *koff*

I'm just gonna rant about us programmers or software developers have to go through, especially us noobies... yes.. I'm a noob here.. :

 1. We are not Miracle workers, we are humans that gets hungry ALOT..sleeps ALOT, Its the side effect of coding.. where was I. Oh ya, we eat, sleep, and have very short attention span thats just me I guess. We can't do everything in one day!

 2. No.. we don't prefer to sit for 5 long hours just to code.. because if we do... there is something what I called Coding Syndrome where we'll just flips the table.. yeah~ literally flips the table and go SCREW THIS SH** sorry about that again

 3. No.. not all of us know how to format or fix PCs~ surprisingly yea..

 4. Dear Google, Please stop making software (I'm looking at you Chrome and Android Studio) that consumes a hell load of memory~ Note to self and others, if you want to use Android Studio in comfort, get at LEAST 8Gb.. yes.. 8 freaking Gb of RAM!

 5. Over and all, we have to admit.. we do have that love and hate relationship with coding.. in any language.. it is like we have a French and American and Chinese girlfriends/boyfriends and we love them and hate them and speak all three language. Now that's some mindfck..yea..I shld stop cursing here

I'm gonna stop here before the cursing goes on and one~

I'll go with SITH

Today's thought: Parents..

 Hi, i wasn't able to update my blog recently due to... games/paintng/anime/games  BAM! NOT TRUE!..ehem.. due to personal chores.. ;)

 Anyway, today lets talk about taking care of our parents... yea.. they can be bothersome at times.. but when we are in trouble or in a bind.. we pick up that phone and dial either our dad's or mom's number.. see that?..

 *clears throat* what i wanna say was..recently i have read quite a few article concerning children abandoning their parents or children starving their parents..here are the few 'reasons' that i can pick up..

1. No time/money to take care (the no1 reason)
2. Troublesome
3. In-Laws/wife/husband don't agree with parents
4. Tired of taking care
5. No one to help with taking care

 Is it me or these reasons sounds retarded and unreasonable? I asked myself, during which when we are small and vulnerable.. 

1. Isn't it our parents spend their time and money (which is costly in raising a kid) on us despite their 8am to 5pm work schedule and during their time... most of the people don't have cars, smartphone, or even computers. So their workload is much more difficult than our current time.. (make it like lvl 9000 hard!)
2. They washed and up our sh*ts.. i mean literally and figuratively.. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IS IS TO CLEAN A BABY'S SH*T when they are wearing those cloth diapers? been there, done that! hard as hell... yet, they accomplish that on a daily basis. Achievement Awarded : Taking care like a BOSS.. to you parents!
3. During their time, they also face the same problem with their In-laws (a.k.a our grandparents), and spouses also.. yet still can take good care of both sides of the families. In Malaysia, the cultural hold was still very strong then.. like "You must take care of your parents only" or "Your family comes 1st" kind of mindset..now we have more freedom of action and thought and yet still... 
4. Imagine... those 80's and 90's kid.. yeah~ the economy inflation.. means more work less pay..means more tire less sleep.. now we have the Internet, ease of workload, better economy..
5. Help in taking care? our parents have each other.. yet still raise us.. i personally consider putting them in those Old Folks Home is a disgrace.. but if we are busy during the day and unable to uphold the deed, sending them for daycare is OK on my books.. but make sure to pick them up

I don't claim to be a good son but taking care of my parents is an honourable deed that each children have to take up upon. who speaks of honor nowadays..lolz BAM! I DO! It may not be easy, but it is a worthwhile deed.. trust me, my family is taking care of my grandma.. and it is not easy, but to see that smile on each of our face and her's.. it is worth it. Just sort of reminding myself and those who read my blog out there the importance of taking care of our parents.

How i feel often.. huehuehue

That goes to every religion out there!

Time and tide

Greetings. Its been a month since i last bought my samsung grand 2. And so far it has been satisfactory... for a mid range smartphone...it seems to be performing very well.
Aside from that, just a quick update for my indoor navigation app... a little more features needed to be included before i finalize that app. One of the major roadblock was that google indoor have provided a platform for indoor mapping..but... it is not available in Malaysia. I think maybe its due to the fact that Malaysia has a bad city planning. So now, as an alternative...i be using an open street map.
I have also noticed that everytime im in my final year or semester in education.. there is always some highlight event happening in my life.. it can either be a good or a bitter memory or it can also be a headache. At least it shows that im learning n im alive.

My old blog is gone!~ oh well~

 Holla~ recently I have found out that my old blog from tabulas is gone... and after some digging, it seems that Tabulas has been gone for quite a while~ sad since all my old post and past entry is there~
 But enough looking back, I shall take this as a sign to move forward. Because just reading the past post of my blog made me facepalm myself made me realize that I have been growing and maturing.
 Recently, Malaysia (my country) have been struck by an incident that is most saddening... the missing flight MH370. Throughout the days of searching, many rumours gave hope and depression to the victims' families. I have learned the impact of spreading such rumours, you know when you just simply share an article at facebook without confirming the authenticity of the information. Yea sure, no harm can be done spreading false information right? WRONG! imagine is a sin is calculated based on the chain reaction that false information gave and for every proceeding chain, the sin is doubled and it adds up until to some unknown point... ya, thats some heavy shit burden there.
 And then there is the incident where our muslim brothers are facing hardship in Egypt. Though I have yet to read about it, do pray for both the muslims in Egypt and the people in MH370.
 As always, pictures owner's copyright is preserved.

Self improvement for hire!

 Sup~ Today was a tiring day... morning got to attend a wedding (which was awesome btw esp the food), evening helped friend go to hospital (May Allah fasten his recovery), and walk around IIUM pasting posters~ like Mubin says "Gila gila wei!" (crazy crazy wei!).. haha~
 Last week until next week I'll be boarding the extra effort and speed revision train~ choo choo! well.. my project kinda slow (well.. i dunno.. mayb its due to the fact that there are so little CONCRETE GUIDE TO INDOOR NAVIGATION!).. fuh.. keep clam calm Addam..
 I have learned to accept criticism although its hard to swallow due to that I'm smart I tend to be comfortable with my knowledge.. but then when i started thinking.. i agreed with those criticism not because they are right but i felt the need to know my wrongs and keep improving~ else... what is my purpose here other than improving right?
Moving on, making up with good friends is really hard when you actually care for them and only to find out that you have committed wrongdoings to them~ man.. it eats up inside you.. worse, they are the one who told you about it and said that it is ok (when you know it is NOT) so, any opinions on how to sincerely apologize is kindly appreciated~ ;)
 Finally, I be going for internship on Jun this year.. which.. I want to go to Japan so badly! ehem... there are too many companies to choose from... should i do it near KL or near my house? should i choose companies along with my coursemates or go solo as always? and there is a Japanese company that does website and it is based near my house but i've to consider the environment/culture can help improve me or not and requirement (financial, knowldge etc etc) to do intern there... too many to think about~
 I'm gonna just write all my task need to complete in a sticky note and paste all over my room and only take it down one by one when it is complete.. how abt that? @_@
 anyway, this is my final semester studying here before i move on to the working world.. so im gonna go all out while partying! enjoying my student life here~ ;)

Use proper English~ ;)

Literally translated!

B**** be trippin balls~

Gotta keep busy~ and make a new blog for tech stuffs~

 And here I'm sitting in my room alone thinking about all the important stuff to do during my semester break and my final semester here in IIUM. So here are a list for me to do (just planning in hopes that most of these will be fulfilled)
1. Make another blog for tech stuff... I've got so much to share
2. Adjust my Android app.. still derping on that
3. get some side jobs.. about time I earn my keep.. plus be needing cash for food and my new found hobby (WARHAMMER 40K)!!
4. Read MOAR more books... gotta control myself as I've just started reading some Warhammer40k books
5. Keep up waking up in the early mornings.. I'm on a streak here!~ though my definition of mornings is from sunrise until 11am~ lolz~

The Bros

The Siss

Programming!!!~

Lolz~ even after 9 years ++ i'm still feeling like a noob in blogging. Maybe its due to my personality of not sharing everything to blog site and I'm not the expressive type. Anyway, since now i've time... lets talk about the importance of learning programming. 

Here's a story that triggers all these thoughts~ There I was, handling an event booth trying to invite more people to come a join. Then one particular group of students (ICT Students) came to check out my booth. As I was explaining about the event (it was a Microsoft programming competition workshop), one of the student just spoke up in Malay "I'm allergic to programming"... imagine how dumbfounded expression look I was making. Come on people, learning programming isn't hard at all and plus I strongly believes that since we are living in a Hi-tech world that constantly bombarding us with new gadgets and devices that (if i may strongly add) are build and run on these programming languages.

 And by knowing programming languages, we are able to at least be a smart tech users, rather than dumb users (that can only complain and cry like a lil baby when sh*t happens). There are more reasons to learn programming languages but it'll take the whole day to write it down.. so rather than list all these reasons.. I'm going to give some tips on how to be good in programming:

1. Pick one and stick to it (I highly recommend HTML for beginners)

2. Imagine you are building a world and feel that awesome-ness

3. Keep on making epic programs (can be webpages, apps, or simple softwares)

4. Seek guidance and ask for help. There are A LOT...i repeat A LOT of experienced programmers that will gladly help you. 

5. Google is your friend.

6. Lastly, practise practise practise~

I myself, am still a noob programmer and have little experience in programming but it keeps on getting interesting. Plus, programming greatly helps making me tech savvy by knowing the inside out on how a tech works so that I can avoid getting hacked/wtf-ed/omfg-ed. 

cheers~ as always~

Mortis Metalikus (A warhammer man/machine sick fusion)

Helping others is by helping yourself

 Waliao! its exactly one year since i last post anything worthwhile. Maybe its due to my reserve nature, and no time to update anything. Ok... its actually no time to update. To help others is to help oneself first, this was a phrase by a character of an anime I've watched not long ago. Which bring me into this thought that since my coding skills aren't that bad, the least I can do is to offer my services in teaching my juniors about programming. Though last short semester I've done 2 classes of 'underground' classes, this semester is lacking of participant. Its either the juniors are not interested in learning coding or they are just taking advantage of the technology available to them. I meant that we are getting more dependable to computers but we do not want to understand these technology. 

 It is not hard to learn coding, in fact most people liked it when they got a hang of it. Coding as I see it can help people be more aware of the technology they use. One obvious reason is that, we use these technology without knowing that other people who can exploit our lack of knowledge in this. Its sad to see that people post lots of stuff of FB without realizing there are other people secretly taking advantage of this. I was one of those people who 'hacks' FB just for fun just to see these ignorant's reaction. With knowing on how to code, its like knowing how the inside of the computer works therefore able to at least defend oneself at a certain level. I rather be a smart tech-user than be a ignorant one. 

 Well, even with all these projects and assignments... I'm willing to offer some of my time to teach if only if these juniors help themselves. Lets hope I'll be able to succeed in spreading this awareness. As for me, I see that by programming, I'm able to create my own world and... in hoping to understand how my Creator felt when He is creating this world and us. 

PS: I never expect I'm lacking in Android designing and Steganography~ @_@ 

Anyway.. here are some 9gag stuff that i found fun~

My often face~ LOL

Why people ask me about marriage?

Woohoo~ after 4 months, finally I post something.. due to unseen circumstances... ;p

I have to actually limit the content of my posts here due it is a public blog... for some of my private posts will be in my old blog.

On to today's topic, marriage... this ranting have been buzzing around my social circle for quite some time now and recently it has escalated to the point that I'm actually annoyed to hear. People have been going like "Marry early can help avoid adultery, marry early can make our life easy, it is not about the money when it comes to marriage...etc etc etc". Well, have marriage have actually been reduced to the reason of simply those... Let me share some of my personal opinion as a person, and yes, as someone who will also one day, get married. (but not for these next years)

 My parents had a simple marriage, kinda like they were close friends, then marry due to that they are already working, stable, and can support both of their parents. My dad had even enough to support my uncle (mum's brother) until he graduate college at Australia. From these events that I heard and learned, is that marriage is a huge step in life... and there is no reverse gear. I can clearly say that divorce is NOT an option because most of my friends whose parents are divorced... aren't doing so well. 

 Marriage should me considered as a holy path and can only be done when we are ready mentally, spiritually and financially...(though, I would like to stress FINANCIALLY) I can't just marry with my parent's money...come on, its my marriage and it should be with my own money. That's one, two... what comes after marriage is a huge commitment, actually... to many to list down (kids, expenditures, family, etc etc)

 To make this short, I see marriage is like a step in life where you will not see yourself as an individual, but as a whole family. It is not your own anymore, you'll have to support your spouse and kids and parents. Here is an alternative to those who can't wait for marriage even though they are not ready, make alot of friends, do lots of activities, find your own purpose to contribute to society, improve oneself and mostly take care of your parents and siblings. That's it, in bahasa... kalo kite gatai sgt nk kawen awal dgn x sedia lg, wat byk keje amal dan b'ibadah je la.. senang cite. No offence people, just my personal opinion. 

A poem form me to my soul~

As the moon embraced the sky,

I was frightened,

A voice called out to me,

but I was blinded by tears.

You, who is smiling is reflected in my eyes,

I can see you screaming, way in the darkness,

but your are just too far away.

"I just want to be your flower,

Scorned by a sinner",

It shrouded in pain,

In the depth of my chest.

I whispered to you, who embraced the pain:

"I want to hold you in this ash-like snow",

I gave the only love I had,

and scattered the blood-stained snow to sky.

You continued to sing as your breath was stained red,

"May you appear in my dreams tonight...",

Your final season has nearly reached its end,

My last tears gather in my eyes, let's return to this fine snow.

Hold me tight enough to break me,

When I wake from my dream,

Your bleeding smile, hiding behind pain expression,

Just disappears.

  

How to fast?

 Salam minna-san~ haha.. suddenly gt japanese word.. anyway, during this Ramadhan month.. I have some tips on how to fast (puasa) properly.. through trial and error...although most of it is also my mistake, here are some tips.
1. Drink lot.and i mean LOTS of water. (Usually I kept a regular check to drink at least 1Liter of water before Imsak..yea, sure your stomach will be full of water but it will help to keep u hydrated in your busy day)

2. Never skip your Sahur (early breakfast before daybreak). Most of you may think that sahur is not such of a big deal. but helps to keep you full for at least until evening.. based on my experience.

3. Try to Sahur as late as possible towards the permissible time. For example, if your Imsak is at 5.40am, then drink and eat around 5am and stop at 5.40am. Most of us made a mistake of eating at 12am then sleep.  Food completely digest in our stomach in around 4 hours.

4. Fiber Food Friendly. Yes, you heard it... fibers and carbohydrate rich food is what keep us filled. So don't do gobbling down random stuff. I would recommend 7-12 dates (buah kurma) after the regular meal.

5. Don't sleep during the evening! You may missed your break fast time. I know it is tempting to sleep or nap for those who stays at home all the time (like me ;) ).. but by sleeping in the evening, you will dehydrate yourself faster, not to mention wasting the time of Ibadah towards Allah.

6. Keep yourself busy. Don't linger and do nothing because later on you will only focus on your hungry empty stomach.. then it won't be much of a fasting right? haha~ To those to stays at home, try helping out with the chores.. or play online games.. like me~

7. Lastly, keep up with your daily prayers. Because it helps remind and correct your intention of fasting during Ramadhan month. I find it easier to focus on my prayers during Ramadhan month.. maybe because there is no devil around.. haha.

Here are some gags to help you with your day:

I am~ a sinner..

 Lovely song..

=_=~

I'm not close to being~~

Salam and good day, so the other day.. some of my old acquaintances said that i'm 'warak' or 'alim'.. the first thing came to my mind was that i'm ashamed of myself.. not because of their compliment.. but sincerely, i know that i'm not close to attaining the title.. heck~ i even thought that i may not be worthy of it... its like the distance of attaining that status of soleh is like earth to the last planet in this solar system.. and i'm crawling to it..its just stressful that at times i fall (disobey) and i forget... my dad told me that the effort and knowledge is what matters. Well, at least i know whether i'm worthy to be entitled or not.. (x buta2 amek pujian org mcm tu je).. Can write much about it here.. i'm going to continue it in another blog.. ;)

Ignorance is a sin and Lying to oneself is heresy.
P.S: Sorry.. no pictures for this~ :(

Who knows right~

 Wao~ who would have knew that I have to learn javascript all over again for this website.. haha.. not that it it hard for me.. but i'm kinda ran out of ideas.. (the idea bag is leaking).. lolz~ its 2.30am... and I'm trying to rush two things before Ramadhan fasting.. one, finishing the website and get my pay..two, is to max out my Dragon Nest character level.. yea, i know that we cant do two things at once. haha~
 Dragon Nest is awesome! i mean it has a good story line.. (albeit long and repetitive questing).. still.. it got me  hooked like reading a book. hehe~ just keeping my blog updated as often as i can~
 Here are some stuff i got from 9gag.. credits to the makers~ ;)

The little signs of blessings~

 Salam and gud mornin to ya all.. bcoz its morning now anywayz~ lolz.. stayed up the whole night doing 3D modelling (or wat seems to look like it) using Photoshop (bcoz I dunno how to use Illustrator) and it was !@#$%&.. hahahahaha~ this might explain the reason why im typing lazily here.. lazy to check my typo.. hahaha~ sorry English..
 Gonna share a bit of an event that happen yesterday, lets just say that blessings comes when we lease expected it.. and i got mine yesterday. I'm still doin my website for the taekwondo club but additionally im hired as a designer for my friend's new company (courtesy of Mr.Fadhil) lolz... hm.. at least now i can help my family reduce some burden of paying some of the bills~ hehe.. here are some of the design. yea i know.. its a bit rough on the edges as one might say.. but im slowly getting the hang on it.. haha~

I'm color blind when there is no idea

slightly improved one might say?.. 

P.S: I remembered my mum always scolded me because I used to blame other ppl for my 'bad luck'.. she always said "You have only yourself to blame for your bad luck because you can prevent any bad things from happening to you, but you didn't".. so thats where i learned to not blame other ppl for any misdeed ppl cause me~ It is because I allowed them to cause it to me.. thought of sharing~